1st day Reflection 1st Jan 2025

 Why to search for a human for the happiness and companionship when you deserve to get it by yourself?

See the more you search it outside the more difficult it would get.

It is not present in a cigarette or a human outside. 

It's us. 

Think it like we as human provide the meaning to it.

If I make meaning then it would make sense and eventually allow us to feel.

I made a lot of meanings and it used to make me heavenly, Now those entities are gone, Those are variables. Why should I stick with them to find the meaning of myself.

I am profound enough to find the meaning by myself, I might have to dodge around, But that's fine.

I don't want to look back now.

I am happy with what I have, I don't need a bunch of folks. Few even none, but I am happy myself.

I enjoy time with myself and I have a tendency to work harder and don't allow myself to drain easily.